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[28 Nov 2004|11:23am] |
I wish that this weather would never leave
It just gets hard to believe
That God sent this angel to watch over me
Cause my angel
She don't receive my calls
Says I'm too dumb to fuck
Too dumb to fight
Too dumb to save
Well, maybe, I don't need no angel at all...
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[12 Aug 2004|11:39pm] |
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I'm in such a great mood right now...this was the perfect way to end an awesome summer...I just hope this mood lasts for a little bit and that things will be the same between us......
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[09 Jul 2004|10:43pm] |
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So surgery is over and i made it to my computer from the couch....damm it was hard work but i really feel like talking so here i go...Today wasnt to bad i got released from the hospital at about 1. my doctor talked to me and said he was really happy with how everything turned out...which doesn't explain why i'm in so mucy damn pain....but these narcotics really fuck with your head, first it was the morphine now percaset...i just can't wait to get off if them..anywaus..teddie came by at around 2 then again a few hours ago...she is awesome...keith also just stopped by for the second time today...we just watched swingers, that movei is awesome..but yeah thanks for everyone how stopped by or called it means a lot to know that people care...anyway, one of the guys in swingers talked about how hard it is getting over someone and how after you do, you actually start to miss that achking in your heart that they made you feel...its just so hard sometimes to get over them...but it happens all at once and when it does happen its like the weight of the world being lifted from your shouldors...its just a hard thing to go through...or to watch a friend go through..i just really wonder sometimes what i ever saw..
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| A shot of strobe light anesthesia, and ill be fine |
[07 Jul 2004|11:30pm] |
So i saw white chicks tonight..i thought it was going to suck..but it ended up being funny as hell..i mean it didn't have the best plot and the acting sucked but it was funny...I went to see it with nikki...its been a while since we hung out, it was cool except during the end of the night she brought up the caroline thing and i just felt like a dick head...I seem to always make the wrong choice..whos knows what we could have had...i fucked up, but its all in the past...Anyway...i'm having surgury tomorrow and i'm scared..i'm not really sure why i'm scared maybe i'm being a pussy..i remeber the last surgury i was really nervous so i put on my headphones and was listening to by the way..they gave me and i.v and some morphine...everything just started moving slowly and i just passed out..as long as i have music there really is nothing to fear...except for the chance of me not waking back up which i guess is what i'm worried about..I'm just really nervous and hope everything goes ok...I'm also glad that megan is going to stay with me for a little bit, it really does give me some comfort, and something to look foward to.. anyway...
Everyone feel free to answer this...If you could have lunch with one person dead or alive who would it be and where would you go?????
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| I am drunk as fuck |
[29 Jun 2004|04:53am] |
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i just wanted dto say that i love you>>>we all want something beautiful>>>yeah>>>i went skinny dipping with a bunch of bosnian chicks tonights>>im just writing this so i don"t forgotetr miy night>>>>>>???>>>FUCK I DON"T KNOW WHERE THE PERIOD IS >>>BUT FUCK IT>>>My computer is fucking up.....any please believe in me..please...i feel like the worlds about to come up and i'm the only one up to watch it...i guess it's always like that...i miss you so much...
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| Would you hold cause i'm lonley without you.... |
[15 Jun 2004|02:59am] |
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I really have my fingers crossed on this one..I hope everything works out it would kick ass...damn i havent smoked in like 4 days, it's so hard to sleep without it, thats what i miss the most just passing the fuck out, but i need to quit for a little bit...going to have surgury in the middle of july i think, so i guess i'm going to have to quit work a little sooner than i thought..which sucks because i need the money and i like my job.. dodge ball looks tight as fuck..this song is awesome, i think that sadly most relationships are just a game of who needs who the worst, which is fucked up, but true..
A little bit closer,
I know you're not bashful
There, now that's not so bad, is it?
So what was that secret?
What did that prick whisper to you?
Was it playful and flirty
Or degrading and dirty?
I know you like it both ways
So -- what did he say?
To make you so goddamn defiant
So fucking triumphant
Relations, in direct competition
Domination
The players, disguised as the lovers
The best friend
A game of who needs who the worst
A little bit closer
Your lipstick is smudged, dear
Here, let me wipe that smirk off
A secret
But you couldn't keep it so secret
Relations, without hesitation
Or social tact
And as it occured, it occured to me
Who needs who?
Who needs who?
A little bit closer...
Closer...
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| I wont drag you down this dead beat road that I can't stray from.... |
[01 Jun 2004|01:04pm] |
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I'm so tired right now and am going to pass out soon but i thought i would up date you fucks on my life first...Ive come to the conclusion that i have the worst luck ever..Just the last week or so my luck has been awfull...for example yesterday i was leaving work and the only thing i wanted was to get home because i was freakin exausted and of course my car doesn't start...FUCK!!! On top of that my phone broke yesterday(I just got a fucking new one!) piece of shit...It all started when i lost my phone at universal....i'm blaming Andrew...But besides my bad luck life has been good...Teddie's mom made some bad ass soup last night..soups not a meal by itself don't get me wrong but it was good anyway..and we watched Big Fish...that movie kicked much ass...After that i went out with Keith and some other people, it was a lot of fun, sung kareoke (I can't spell that fuckign word) and got wasted...i think we had 10 pitchers between 5 of us...I know it was a lot because i threw up last night and i don't puke much from beer..I woke up and had to take care of my phone and battery some i'm still hungover. There's nothing like taking a big crap in the morning after drinking a lot of beer the night before..Yeah thats pretty much it...i have a date tonight with my mom. I figure i might as well take her out since my dad is never home to do it..Oh yeah and when i took my phone to get it fixed or whatever..the guy asked if i had insurance and of course i don't...jesus, why would i opp for 4 dollar insurance with my great luck?..he said to call sprint get insurance wait a week or so and tell them my phone is broken and they will replace..ha ha..thats an awesome idea so ill call them as soon as i feel like it..untill then get used to talking to me on speaker phone...steel train is amazing
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[25 May 2004|06:27pm] |
Certainly the answer here was twofold, a heartfelt yes and a logical no...
"Follow your heart, minute by mibute and day by day. Let the course of the river run as it will, instead of tying yourself up in fears that you may never realize"
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[22 May 2004|01:58pm] |
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I'm in such a wierd place right now...i think ill just listen to the playlist you made me and sleep for a while...
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| We accept the love we think we deserve.. |
[20 May 2004|04:20pm] |
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so i just got a new cell phone its cool.I lost my old one on a roller coaster so i only have peoples numbers i know by heart in this one..Just got back from Daytonna..it was fun. I went with keith and Andrew..I have been hanging out with him a lot the last couple days...he's a cool kid..I visited my Grandma, it was actually nice to see her. It may be the last time i see her...shes real sick..Its sad to see people get old, I guess we just ugly away. Anyway after that we bought some beer and hung out on the boat for a while. Hit up a pizza place, bought more beer and came back to the boat drank more and went to a strip club...It was fun, but i probably wont go back for a while it's not really my type of place...but it was fun...one of the strippers came back to the boat with us...there was talk of running the train on her and throwing high fives over eachothers back...but yeah..thats pretty much it..i might go out tonight and i might work tomorrow...got my first pay check today..thank god...alright i'm out peace..
So I kissed you
One night as forever
In the movies
Well, they never had it so good
One moment
So infinite
On soft wet lips
And I miss you
Are you glad I'm finally gone?
I'm so sorry to hear that
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry
I promise
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| The worst is over... |
[23 Apr 2004|09:26pm] |
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So i'm almost done with my Freshmen year of college, and i'm passing wooohooo!!...This year was awesome...i met so many great people, and i feel at home here...as close to home as ill ever find...Last night was fun..got drunk for the first time in a while went to deveny's...threw up again. Seriously i never threw up before i got here now its a common thing..after that passed out in whiths bed...went home at like 930 this morning..jon, milli, stash, and tim came over and we went to the beach even though i should have studied...it was amazing as usual..jon and I have been surfing a lot as of late and i love it...i feel like i can escape a lot of these reacurring thoughts and just live...i plan on going a lot this summer anyone who wants to go is more then welcome...and now its friday night..i kind of want to go out but i should stay in and study, and my head is killing me..so that brings me up to now...just got off the phone with Jen..it was nice...I asked her for advice on some things and she helped me out a lot...i might actually take her advice. yeah thats about it and i move out on monday after my exam and my english class so excited to have a summer full of work and hanging out with everyone..old friends and new..done rambling
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lets pretend were not needy
lets pretend our hearts still beat
lets pretend we fall in love tonight
clumsy enough to fall for anything
well stumble on our words
well spill our guts on creaking bar stools
below the neon blue
low lives hiding in dives theres no feeling in drinking sleeping with strangers
ghosts passing through bedrooms unaware
a faint reflection on the barbacks mirror
a face i never knew whispering,
please dont be a stranger to me. who are you if youre alone'
youre no good at pretending
all my plays have tragic endings
you wish i was a fairy tale
this frog will never change anything
just pretend that youre in love
that scolding sun is bound to come up eventually
so who is it that whispers in your ear
a haunting voice blows in through the window
theres no feeling floating over beds
a needy pleading apparition
crying 'who am i if im alone?
i hardly exist at all.
lets pretend that we dont need anything anymore from anyone.
i dont want to feel anything anymore lets just pretend'
well live happily ever after
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Right now i'm chillin with my dog Whith...I am wearing her brown poop pants.....This weekend was amazing, one of the best weekends ever. Saturday night was awesome. I missed someone though..Tomorrow I turn 19! check out the pics nigs
Dr. Weird Guy
[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<img [...] guy">') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Right now i'm chillin with my dog Whith...I am wearing her brown poop pants.....This weekend was amazing, one of the best weekends ever. Saturday night was awesome. I missed someone though..Tomorrow I turn 19! check out the pics nigs Dr. Weird Guy <img src="http://img50.photobucket.com/albums/v154/whither/weirdguy.jpg"Dr. Weird Guy" /> Core <img src="http://img50.photobucket.com/albums/v154/whither/matteosmalls.jpg" alt="ghghhghgg" /> My Baby <img src="http://img50.photobucket.com/albums/v154/whither/magandboat.jpg" alt="title or description" /> Seducing my Baby <img src="http://img50.photobucket.com/albums/v154/whither/magandb2.jpg" alt="title or description" /> Lifeguard Maggie <img src="http://img50.photobucket.com/albums/v154/whither/getitmaggie.jpg" alt="title or description" /> Falatio..he thinks he is on the Titanic. That silly Flat! <img src="http://img50.photobucket.com/albums/v154/whither/flat.jpg" alt="title or description" /> Stewie and Flat <img src="http://img50.photobucket.com/albums/v154/whither/boogandflat.jpg" alt="title or description" /> B nips <img src="http://img50.photobucket.com/albums/v154/whither/bnipsandmag.jpg" alt="title or description" /> Whither <img src="http://img50.photobucket.com/albums/v154/whither/bandmag.jpg" alt="title or description" /> Whither <img src="http://img50.photobucket.com/albums/v154/whither/magandb.jpg" alt="title or description" /> |
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[04 Apr 2004|01:07am] |
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So the cars out of the ditch...I'm still a little drunk, staying in for the rest of the night. I hung out with my dad today, it was cool. I realized how much I love him, and how much i really do have in common with him...Even though we have been through some shit i can understand where he came from, i guess...sometimes it's hard to forgive someone, but i forgive him...I even see myself in him sometimes, i guess thats not a good thing though, especially when it comes to drinking...whatever..done rambling peace.
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I have an extra Ilsands of Adventure ticket for tomorrow night...let me know if anyone wants that bitch
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| this isn't love so forever let it go...forever will it burn |
[25 Mar 2004|12:56pm] |
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Just took my human species test and walked over to the student union to watch this dude freestyle...it was tigt..Things have been good lately pretty busy. I have been staying out of my room latley...everytime i'm in it there seems to be a bunch of unmotivated fucks playing halo...all day long! I don't even have a chair to sit on most of the time! Oh well...halo is awesome...
I feel like you use me and don't appreciate the things i do....It's ok though, i wont be around to much longer...
Thrice is tomorrow, i have sooooooooooo much shit to do today but by tomorrow it will all be over with and well worth it when i see them play...I plan to stay in town friday night, so if anyone wants to harbor me thats coooooool.ok, done rambling....peace nigs
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| You and I are like when fire and the ocean floor collide |
[21 Mar 2004|09:49pm] |
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Yeah i just got a new icon, i think the Rick James thing is started to get old, but i still think the icon is funny as hell....
Right now I am in the computer lab working on History, I will probably spend a lot of time in here this week, I have so much shit to do..
Last week was cool...The get up kids kicked ass, they made up for a sucky Saves the Day show. As kick ass as the kids were I still have thrice and P.T.W to look foward to on Friday...I'm not a big fan of the hardcore "dancing" thing, but its cool...i'm to punk for that shit! Yeah so you better stay out of my way with that shit MATEO, or ill fuck your shit up!
More studying...fuck!
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| Sticks and stones may break your bones, but words can hurt like hell... |
[18 Mar 2004|04:25pm] |
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I don't even know who i am anymore..The person i once was and the things i once stood for, where did they go? I came here for an education, and that seems to be the last thing on my mind. It's time for some soul searching.
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